“’Behind the other door’
There is always something hiding
that we’ll never know for sure was
better or worse. Maybe tickets
to a play or ride in a Hearse,
so don’t curse if the day doesn’t
go according to your plans. Be
glad you’re vertical and able
to say you had a good or bad
or even mediocre day.”
– Robert Lee Brewer, http://www.writersdigest.com
I’ve been thinking quite a bit lately about plot twists in our lives. I stumbled across this poem and it got me thinking about how I handle plot twists in my life; as I’ve had more than a few, some recently. I feel as though the first sentence of this poem does a splendid job expressing the fear that many, if not most, of us have surrounding change.
The second part: “… so don’t curse if the day doesn’t go according to your plans.” speaks to me in two ways. My first reaction is that it’s telling me not to be upset if my life, or my day, doesn’t go the way I planned it to; which I do often and have been doing recently. My plans for the next few years have had to adjust and change and that has been a source of great frustration and annoyance to me. Because money runs the world, generally speaking, I am having to take a job to help pay for me to finish my degree and monthly expenses. Which, in turn, will slow down my writing and completion of my degree. (Insert annoyed emoticon here).
The second part of the poem also tells me something else. It tells me not to be afraid of opportunity. Don’t be afraid of “something hiding”, because how is that living? Now if it’s a spider, I’ll be screaming and booking it out of that joint. BUT, it could be a great opportunity, or it could be a huge fuck-off spider wanting to eat you. Chances are it’s an opportunity. Change is good. Change is scary as hell sometimes, but it’s necessary to grow as a human, and it’s good.
The last part of the poem was the most poignant to me. As my parents can attest, I spend a lot of time daydreaming. I spend a lot of time thinking about the future, and thinking about the past, I sometimes (oftentimes) forget to be in the present. I also forget to be grateful that I could have a shitty day. I know that sounds… odd or peculiar, but think about it. Sometimes, most of the time, it’s ok to have a bad day, it makes the good days that much sweeter. Furthermore, it’s ok to have a mediocre day, and it’s ok to just… be. I know I’m starting to sound like a cliché so I’ll quit while I’m ahead on this topic.
As I was writing this post, the song “Hope There’s Someone” by Antony and the Johnsons played. This song was played in my favorite episode of the television show “Torchwood”. The episode is entitled “Random Shoes”, basically the plot is this young man dies by getting hit by a car, just prior to that he consumed an alien artifact that allows a person to gain a fresh perspective on their past life. I think the episode initially struck a cord with me based on the scene of young man’s mother sobbing as Torchwood left his house with some of his belongings to investigate his death. I have not had a child die, but I’ve had a niece die and that death has reverberated through my life in more ways than I expected and continues to do so.
However, I think, in addition to that subplot, the episode strikes a cord with me because it allows Eugene (the young man) to see his life, especially the days and months leading up to his death, in a new perspective. Thankfully, we don’t have to die to have this experience. I encourage everyone to take time to look at your life. It’s amazing how different your life experiences might look once you have some time to look at them objectively. But don’t spend all your time rethinking and reliving your past. Don’t forget to live; be present, be IN the present.
So to sum up this post: I’m looking for work in the Des Moines area, I’m not moving anytime soon. I’m still working on my book, and my courses to complete my bachelor’s degree in the meantime.
I hope this post finds you all well my lovelies. Be present, live your life. Don’t be afraid of change or what’s around the corner; if there’s a huge fuck-off spider around the corner, just run like your life depended on it, because it probably does.
All my love,
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