Hey All,

I wanted to update you on my absence from my page and blog. A lot has been going on with me and I’d like to explain.

Around the end of August I developed a bad ear infection that left me feeling weak and tired all the time. This continued until present day.

On September 4th, I went on a first date with a man I met on Plenty of Fish. We had been talking for a month and he seemed kind, and normal, no red flags were popping up. While on the date, he raped me.

I had to take extensive time off work to survive emotionally, physically, and mentally. Today I’m doing much better thanks to my best friends, and therapist. The Des Moines Police Department has not been cooperative with my case but I’m still hopeful they’ll find the asshole.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago; my weakness and fatigue has continued during this time, including symptoms of short term memory loss and periodic aphasia. I began to develop high fevers that have since gone away with the exception of a periodic one. My joints and back have been hurting this entire time which I chalked up to just being my regular minor joint and back pain.

I have become so weak that I have fallen twice, once hitting my head. I have to walk with a cane now and use a shower chair. I’m too weak to keep my apartment clean, much less do simple tasks like the dishes. My doctor has ordered an MRI and I’ve had every autoimmune test done. So far all my bloodwork is coming back normal. Which makes this frustrating because we don’t have a name for my symptoms, much less a treatment plan.

On top of all that, I lost my job as my contract expired at my temp job. I’ve yet to find a new job as everywhere I apply I get rejected. My depression has been pretty severe given all that has been going on and seems to exacerbate my symptoms, so I’m trying to keep in good spirits and do self care.

Today I have therapy and a home health nurse is supposed to be stopping by to assess my needs for home health care, I expect they’ll order physical therapy and a home health aid to help me with daily tasks like cooking, cleaning, and doing dishes. All of which I am unable to do in my current state.

There are days where I can’t get out of bed because I’m either too weak or in too much pain. So I ask to please pray, send positive vibes, keep me in your thoughts as I navigate what’s going on with me.

I think that’s all I have for now, I’m tired and it’s 2AM. I hope this finds you well and I hope you all enjoy your holidays.